“I’m my own biggest critic”: an autoethnographic reflection on an early-career researcher’s first year as a lecturer in law

Higson-Bliss, Laura

Abstract

Embedding my discussions in the wider literature around the neoliberal university and adopting an autoethnographic approach (the keeping of a diary), I explore the thoughts and feelings that I have had over my first year of teaching and researching in my first permanent lectureship, post-PhD during the midst of a global pandemic and where strike action is evidently present. Using an inductive thematic analysis, I highlight three recurring themes: (1) anxiety; (2) imposter syndrome; and (3) catastrophising – all of which are heavily interlinked and evidently present across the neoliberal higher education system. I use these themes to highlight how this has affected my own understanding of what it’s like to work in academia as a lecturer in law and in turn, how this has affected my feelings towards my job and more importantly, towards my teaching and research – aspects of my job which commonly come into conflict with each other. The final parts of this article put forward suggestions on what early-career researchers can do to tackle their own insecurities and what individuals in the academy can also do to better support colleagues to create a form of collectiveness within the modern law school.

Citation

Higson-Bliss, L. (in press). “I’m my own biggest critic”: an autoethnographic reflection on an early-career researcher’s first year as a lecturer in law. The Law Teacher, 57(4), 1-17. https://doi.org/10.1080/03069400.2023.2281765

• Journal Article Type: Article
• Acceptance Date: Nov 7, 2023
• Online Publication Date: Dec 5, 2023
• Deposit Date: Dec 18, 2023
• Journal: The Law Teacher
• Print ISSN: 0306-9400
• Publisher: Taylor and Francis Group
• Peer Reviewed: Peer Reviewed
• Volume: 57
• Issue: 4
• Pages: 1-17
• DOI: https://doi.org/10.1080/03069400.2023.2281765
• Keywords: Law, Education
• Public URL: https://keele-repository.worktribe.com/output/669542