"‘I’m my own biggest critic’ – an autoethnographic reflection of an early-career researcher’s first year as a Lecturer in Law"

Higson-Bliss, Laura

Abstract

Embedding my discussions in the wider literature around the neoliberal university and adopting an autoethnographic approach (the keeping of a diary), I explore the thoughts and feelings that I have felt over my first year of teaching and researching in my first permanent lectureship, post PhD during the midst of a global pandemic and where strike action is evidently present. Using an inductive thematic analysis, I highlight three recurring themes: (1) Anxiety; (2) Imposter syndrome; and (3) Catastrophising – all of which are heavily interlinked and evidently present across the neoliberal higher education system. I use these themes to highlight how this has affected my own understanding of what it’s like to work in academia as a Lecturer in Law and in turn, how this has affected my feelings towards my job and more importantly, towards my teaching and research – aspects of my job which commonly come into conflict with each other. The final parts of this article puts forward suggestions on what early-career researchers can do to tackle their own insecurities and what individuals in the academy can also do to better support colleagues to create a form of collectiveness within the modern Law School

Citation

Higson-Bliss, L. (2023). "‘I’m my own biggest critic’ – an autoethnographic reflection of an early-career researcher’s first year as a Lecturer in Law". The Law Teacher, 57(4), https://doi.org/10.1080/03069400.2023.2281765

• Journal Article Type: Article
• Acceptance Date: Nov 7, 2023
• Online Publication Date: Dec 15, 2023
• Publication Date: Dec 15, 2023
• Deposit Date: Nov 8, 2023
• Publicly Available Date: Jan 25, 2024
• Print ISSN: 0306-9400
• Publisher: Taylor and Francis Group
• Peer Reviewed: Peer Reviewed
• Volume: 57
• Issue: 4
• DOI: https://doi.org/10.1080/03069400.2023.2281765